Today my dear friend Ricky went to heaven. Why does life feel so short sometimes. No more than 26 yo and yet in the "middle" of his life on earth with a beautiful wife, baby boy, new house, new job... My heart cries with loss.
How do you move forward in a moment like this? You don't. You let pain have it's turn. Grieve in peace. It's ok to question. As long as you still trust The plan you don't know and understand because what you do know and hold True is God Loves You and it's His plan we trust.
Grief is a process. It's our process of loss in our lives. If we don't allow ourselves to go thru it we end up dysfunctional, stuck or moving as broken people, bitter, angry or emotionless. Don't try and figure out why or how this could be... We feel robbed. Now is not the time for understanding and answers to those questions. Now is the time for prayer, Love and grief. Let God turn the mourning into dancing and trade beauty for ashes when the soul is settled.
I feel like my brother is gone. I will miss my sweet friend. He gave so much life, joy and happiness to friends, family and even strangers. His smile brightened a room and had a light filled with warmth. His nature was peaceful. Everyone liked Ricky. My heart hurts for his wife who's heart was solely his. Their love was a beautiful example of how God makes a very special spouse in mind just for you. They were perfect for each other and so in love. And his son, who won't know him the way we do. Somehow God will restore the both of them what has been lost. But it's hard to imagine...
